Lock me up
and melt down the key,
I'm schizophrenic
can't you see?
of course you can't
you've only seen me insane,
not the other me
not my pain,
sometimes they blur
you see it in my eye,
I reply with a quick "nothing"
and force it to die,
I'm serious when I'm alone
and the sadness is instantly there,
I try to mask it
from all that care,
But recently the line that seperates
has strained, cracked, then shattered,
you've seen me cry, breakdown
all torn and tattered,
the sleek silver shards now tear at me
my minds destorted everything,
I keep feeling clawing at my arms
but brushing off nothing,
Deeper into the dark abyss I
My head hurts
My heart hurts
Things are falling apart
My heart
And my head
In a battle
Both telling me things
Always different
Did I make a wrong decision?
Did I make a mistake?
Should I have done that?
It that what you really want?
You know you don't want that
Not right now
Your not ready
You Can't
You're going to screw it up
You're going to get hurt
You're going to hurt her
You know what you want
But you don't
You're right
You're wrong
Big mistake
No its not
You're just trying to keep her happy
You Won't be happy
You Can't force happiness
You can be happy
Your making her happy
You are being forced by guilt
You
"I Feel"
(Written By Missy39811}
I Feel your hands touched by silence
breathing through the cold winters wind breeze made by our love frozen in time
I Feel our heartbeat together as you embrace our souls as one and I Feel So Lost
And I Feel So Scared And I Feel So Empty
And I look deep into your eyes staring within mine
And I Feel I Cannot answer to our love
Lost hopeForgiven dreams
Silence in the air
We touch We cry We laugh We smile
We try
We hold on
For a lifetime we become one
I have promised you in all devotion
Left you in faith without question
Yet years later
I see You Ex
I came to reply to your journal Who The F**k Are You?! 2 (I read it saturday night, like 4 in the morning), but it has magically dissapeared. Why'd you delete it man, I liked it.